I’m tired of feeling like “too much.” I ask too much, require too much attention, need too much validation. My emotions are too much. I want too much. Expect too much. Demand too much. Have too much fat, my flaws are too much. I’ve always felt that way and it’s gotten better in some areas over the years, until they are challenged and my first instinct is to lash out at myself. Of course it’s all my fault. If only I didn’t expect too much…

But fuck that. I am a lot. I do expect a lot. I feel big emotions and I care deeply. And that’s okay. I’m okay. I’m okay just the way I am. I’m trying really hard to believe that.

14 Replies to “Too much”

    1. That’s a great suggestion. Changing the way I talk to myself has made the most difference in me *feeling* differently about myself.

  1. I know this feeling, intimately. And Yes, you are perfectly you just the way you are <3

  2. Oh Nikki your words really resonated with me. I know I spent a lot of my life trying to small and quiet. It was the only way to survive the bullying I experienced at school. At the moment I struggling with a lot of emotions that have come to the surface as I once again feel like I need to be small and invisible in order to exist. I know I don’t but past trauma is making it hard to deal with.

    Molly

  3. l relate to this soooo much. I struggle with everything you have described and i empathize! but we aren’t too much for the right people!

  4. Gorgeous pics, as always. And as someone who also knows/believes/thinks that I am too much, this resonates with me. The best thing I ever did for myself was to embrace my “too muchness” — not that it’s always easy, but I have found that’s always been worth it.

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