Hi. I’m Nikki and I minimize my trauma.

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  I told my therapist I was planning to write about what it does to your brain to be cheated on for a decade. She agreed but suggested it not be specifically about  being cheated on, but rather about being exposed to...

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Pink

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When I was growing up, my family didn’t skirt around the fact that they would have preferred a boy. Since I was a child and of course wanted my parents acceptance, I convinced myself I hated pink, or anything girly...

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I wrote a letter to my younger self and it was cathartic af

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I originally published this on my SFW blog last Fall, but didn’t realize I hadn’t shared it here as well. CW: contains mentions of depression and suicide   Depression is notorious for killing your motivation and creativity, so a few weeks...

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D/s relationships, the yips, and never perfecting your putting game

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You line it up. You’ve done this a thousand times before. It’s as easy as breathing. You swing. What… the fuck… was that? Shake it off. You’ll get it next time. You wait, you breathe, you prep, you go through...

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That fucking blanket

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Having a mental illness is often a lonely feeling. In my experience, depression, anxiety and PTSD, whether separately, or some magical bullshit combines them together into a cocktail of distinct and almost comforting isolation. I struggle with this because I find...

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A fundamental fear of happiness

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I started the day like most Thursdays, excited because it was date night and a little anxious but eager to go to therapy. As I was getting my medication out for the day, I realized I wasn’t dying to get...

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Kink for the win

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It is no secret that safely participating in BDSM and kink can be helpful in relieving symptoms of depression, anxiety and a plethora of mental health issues. You don’t have to look too far to read how kink has improved...

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