Beside myself: The Quantum Slalom

First things first: read the headline out loud. In doing so, you’ll likely have no choice but to become self-aware for a brief moment as you ponder how you sound saying those words. They don’t exactly roll right off the tongue. The point of this article is to teach you something you’ve already been taught: …

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I’m fucking trying.

content warning: mentions of depression, anxiety, self-esteem, alcohol, isolation     After two months of daily prompts I was trying to stick to, I needed a month with less rigidity. And on day three I keep catching myself in an anxiety loop of “okay, what am I behind on now?” and it’s not going away …

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Radical Self Love

  Untitled Document.   It taunts me. That empty space, begging to be filled. To be created, to become something tangible and real. Knowing it would make me feel better to just purge something onto a page, anything, just exorcise some demons.    I think I am afraid of it. Afraid of what I will …

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A fundamental fear of happiness

I started the day like most Thursdays, excited because it was date night and a little anxious but eager to go to therapy. As I was getting my medication out for the day, I realized I wasn’t dying to get to therapy like I usually am by Thursday morning. I don’t really have any friends …

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Growth is painful, good thing I’m a masochist

It’s been interesting learning more and more about my mental illnesses and the things I can do to help myself. I never knew I had so much control over my brain. It has been both a miraculous breakthrough and a terrifying realization. It makes me feel more hopeful about my mental health prognosis, but knowing it is ultimately up to me is pretty fucking scary.

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