trauma – Love is a fetish

Hi. I’m Nikki and I minimize my trauma.

nikki March 18, 2019March 18, 2019 #sb4mh, Anecdotal, mental health cbt, cheating, childhood trauma, cPTSD, depression, fear, infidelity, marriage, mental health, therapy, trauma, trust5 Comments

I told my therapist I was planning to write about what it does to your brain to be cheated on for a decade. She agreed but suggested it not be specifically about being cheated on, but rather about being exposed to...

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Pink

nikki March 13, 2019July 15, 2019 #365photochallenge, Anecdotal, Art, Lingerie is for everyone, mental health #feet, #fetish, 365photochallenge, Art, blog, bodypositive, childhood, confidence, exhibitionism, feminine, foot fetish, growth, kinky, lingerie, meme, mental health, painted toes, panties, photography, pink, pink polish, self-esteem, sex blog, sexy, toes, trauma, voyeurism1 Comment

When I was growing up, my family didn’t skirt around the fact that they would have preferred a boy. Since I was a child and of course wanted my parents acceptance, I convinced myself I hated pink, or anything girly...

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I wrote a letter to my younger self and it was cathartic af

nikki January 21, 2019 #sb4mh, Anecdotal #sb4mh, anxiety, cPTSD, depression, mental health, mental health blogger, mental health monday, mental illness, ptsd, sex bloggers for mental health, therapy, trauma, writing prompt7 Comments

I originally published this on my SFW blog last Fall, but didn’t realize I hadn’t shared it here as well. CW: contains mentions of depression and suicide Depression is notorious for killing your motivation and creativity, so a few weeks...

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A fundamental fear of happiness

nikki January 13, 2019January 13, 2019 #sb4mh, Anecdotal, mental health #sb4mh, anxiety, depression, fear, fear of happiness, happiness, life, love, mental health, mental illness, progress, ptsd, relationships, self-esteem, self-help, therapy, trauma6 Comments

I started the day like most Thursdays, excited because it was date night and a little anxious but eager to go to therapy. As I was getting my medication out for the day, I realized I wasn’t dying to get...

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Triggers, Triggers, Triggers

nikki November 7, 2018December 22, 2018 Anecdotal anxiety, atheism, cbt, communication, confidence, depression, growth, love, mental health, mental illness, progress, ptsd, relationships, respect, sex, therapy, trauma0 Comment

I feel like Kanye who just can't understand the fish sticks joke.

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Triggers, Triggers, Triggers

nikki November 7, 2018December 22, 2018 Anecdotal anxiety, atheism, cbt, communication, confidence, depression, growth, love, mental health, mental illness, progress, ptsd, relationships, respect, sex, therapy, trauma1 Comment

I feel like Kanye who just can't understand the fish sticks joke.

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The discomfort of confession

nikki November 5, 2018December 22, 2018 Anecdotal #fetish, anxiety, bdsm, communication, confidence, couples, depression, ds, growth, honesty, love, loyalty, marriage, masochist, mental health, mental illness, monogamy, owned, progress, relationships, respect, self-esteem, self-help, sex, sexy, submission, therapy, trauma1 Comment

I was way more in touch with my pussy than I was with my emotions when we began, so we started there. Beginning with the physical vulnerability, which I found easier, inevitably helped break through years of emotional walls and...

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