Nikki 
When I first opened the Ruby and shared photos, the reaction was pretty much unanimously “ooh how pretty!” One of Vibease’s Jewel collection, the Ruby is part of a line of jewel-inspired toys that are all little works of art with their lovely combination of curves and geometric lines. The Ruby has soft silicone …
Go on…The Ruby by Vibease is the prettiest vibrator that does zilch for my body
I have a highly sensitive clit, so I’d avoided most toys designed for “suction” for quite some time. Vibrations are more than welcome, but since even a tender sucking during oral sex is usually too much direct contact, I worried it might be a waste of time for me to try something that was more …
I couldn’t tell you how many times I sat in my therapists office last year as she so easily and nonchalantly said “Of course, you just want your feelings validated.” Like this was common knowledge. I didn’t even understand it when she said it to me the first time. I’ve spent my entire life hearing …
Music is such an important part of my life. It always has been. The few pleasant memories I have of my father are some summer afternoons when I was home from school with him and we would pick my mom up from work. It was about a 30 minute drive from way out in the …
Twice in the past week I have taken photos of myself that I have been really proud of. I hesitated to share either. Why? Because I wasn’t smiling. That’s it. The lighting was great, I felt sexy, the poses were flattering, but I had a serious look on my face in both images. Obviously models …
I told my therapist I was planning to write about what it does to your brain to be cheated on for a decade. She agreed but suggested it not be specifically about being cheated on, but rather about being exposed to trauma for a decade. I nodded my head in agreement, but in my head I …
I have really been struggling to write lately. Not because of blocks, or lack of inspiration, but so much is happening so quickly that I have too much to say and very little time to say it. Not only are our lives changing in numerous dramatic ways, I also have a two year old all …
I originally published this on my SFW blog last Fall, but didn’t realize I hadn’t shared it here as well. CW: contains mentions of depression and suicide Depression is notorious for killing your motivation and creativity, so a few weeks ago I was trying to force myself to do something, anything, to help get that …
Go on…I wrote a letter to my younger self and it was cathartic af
Having a mental illness is often a lonely feeling. In my experience, depression, anxiety and PTSD, whether separately, or some magical bullshit combines them together into a cocktail of distinct and almost comforting isolation. I struggle with this because I find it effortless to melt into that loneliness and isolation as it is easier and more …
I started the day like most Thursdays, excited because it was date night and a little anxious but eager to go to therapy. As I was getting my medication out for the day, I realized I wasn’t dying to get to therapy like I usually am by Thursday morning. I don’t really have any friends …