Mexico, masochism, and Mother’s Day

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You know, as they say, timing is everything. Not that there is ever an ideal time for shitty things to happen, but sometimes, some things sting more than others. When you are raw and sensitive and triggering things just keep...

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Hi. I’m Nikki and I minimize my trauma.

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  I told my therapist I was planning to write about what it does to your brain to be cheated on for a decade. She agreed but suggested it not be specifically about  being cheated on, but rather about being exposed to...

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I wrote a letter to my younger self and it was cathartic af

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I originally published this on my SFW blog last Fall, but didn’t realize I hadn’t shared it here as well. CW: contains mentions of depression and suicide   Depression is notorious for killing your motivation and creativity, so a few weeks...

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That fucking blanket

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Having a mental illness is often a lonely feeling. In my experience, depression, anxiety and PTSD, whether separately, or some magical bullshit combines them together into a cocktail of distinct and almost comforting isolation. I struggle with this because I find...

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A fundamental fear of happiness

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I started the day like most Thursdays, excited because it was date night and a little anxious but eager to go to therapy. As I was getting my medication out for the day, I realized I wasn’t dying to get...

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Kink for the win

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It is no secret that safely participating in BDSM and kink can be helpful in relieving symptoms of depression, anxiety and a plethora of mental health issues. You don’t have to look too far to read how kink has improved...

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Let’s wrap this up, shall we?

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The past fifteen months of my life have been a ridiculous rollercoaster. Starting in October 2017, I have had some of my lowest lows and some of my highest highs. All of them forcing me to grow and expand in...

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