Hi. I’m Nikki and I minimize my trauma.

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  I told my therapist I was planning to write about what it does to your brain to be cheated on for a decade. She agreed but suggested it not be specifically about  being cheated on, but rather about being exposed to...

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Pink

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When I was growing up, my family didn’t skirt around the fact that they would have preferred a boy. Since I was a child and of course wanted my parents acceptance, I convinced myself I hated pink, or anything girly...

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That fucking blanket

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Having a mental illness is often a lonely feeling. In my experience, depression, anxiety and PTSD, whether separately, or some magical bullshit combines them together into a cocktail of distinct and almost comforting isolation. I struggle with this because I find...

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A fundamental fear of happiness

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I started the day like most Thursdays, excited because it was date night and a little anxious but eager to go to therapy. As I was getting my medication out for the day, I realized I wasn’t dying to get...

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Let’s wrap this up, shall we?

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The past fifteen months of my life have been a ridiculous rollercoaster. Starting in October 2017, I have had some of my lowest lows and some of my highest highs. All of them forcing me to grow and expand in...

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Appreciating my body

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Seeing myself on the screen, exposed and vulnerable, I was able to gain a new perspective on my appearance. I spent days editing when I had the time, always anxious to get back to it. Almost as if I was...

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