Mexico, masochism, and Mother’s Day

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You know, as they say, timing is everything. Not that there is ever an ideal time for shitty things to happen, but sometimes, some things sting more than others. When you are raw and sensitive and triggering things just keep...

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Lingerie is for… self love

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My mental health has been slipping lately. It is hard to be so aware of it sometimes. To know I am falling back into destructive habits, but not have the motivation to change the behaviors. Thankfully, I know myself, and...

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Hi. I’m Nikki and I minimize my trauma.

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  I told my therapist I was planning to write about what it does to your brain to be cheated on for a decade. She agreed but suggested it not be specifically about  being cheated on, but rather about being exposed to...

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Pink

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When I was growing up, my family didn’t skirt around the fact that they would have preferred a boy. Since I was a child and of course wanted my parents acceptance, I convinced myself I hated pink, or anything girly...

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That fucking blanket

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Having a mental illness is often a lonely feeling. In my experience, depression, anxiety and PTSD, whether separately, or some magical bullshit combines them together into a cocktail of distinct and almost comforting isolation. I struggle with this because I find...

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A fundamental fear of happiness

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I started the day like most Thursdays, excited because it was date night and a little anxious but eager to go to therapy. As I was getting my medication out for the day, I realized I wasn’t dying to get...

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Let’s wrap this up, shall we?

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The past fifteen months of my life have been a ridiculous rollercoaster. Starting in October 2017, I have had some of my lowest lows and some of my highest highs. All of them forcing me to grow and expand in...

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